Great Expectations

I’ve spent too long

Memorizing the pauses in lovesongs

Looking for a man

To fill the gaps

With his presence.

A wicked emptiness

A life devoid of self

I found myself alone

I weaved a web

The wind is blowing

I’m losing time

Days slip by like pictures do the blind

I’m sick of crying

Great expectations

Make way for

Eternal lamentations

I cannot win

Again and again I give in

Til I reach my breaking point

No more people to anoint

My special victims

Human experiments

Allowing me to circumvent

That which I am to measure myself by.

The test must now apply to me

Or I can never grow joyous nor free

This road I must walk on my own

I have grown

From a girl to a woman

Who needs no man

To tell her exactly where

She stands

I’ve found my place

Among the sheep

Among the wolves

I hold my own.